Abraham Lincoln 150 Years Later: Despite Ourselves, We must think anew and act anew

imagesby Todd Robert Murphy

It was a gorgeous spring day in Washington D.C. The streets were bustling with people as Charles Leale strolled among them. It was unseasonably warm. Spring had arrived, and he noticed freshness to the air as he inhaled and exhaled. There was a scent of flowers, and the buds were becoming fuller on the trees.

Charles Leale had just graduated from medical school. He joined the army, and his future was radiant with hope and promise. Everything was perfect, including this day. It was Good Friday. Easter was late in this calendar year. The shops were at full tilt as they sold their wares to those celebrating the upcoming Easter holiday. Most would close briefly in the afternoon out of respect to the death of the crucified Christ.

Leale heard the voices of children’s laughter and momentarily watched a couple of adventurous boys crossing the Potomac in a rowboat. The large oars that would build their muscles seemed unwieldy for their young age. The soldiers were coming home from a dreadful war, and he would be tasked to attend to those wounded in the bitter conflict. However that was for another day. Tonight he would attend the theater and enjoy the evening with friends and perhaps a libation or two.

As Dr. Leale prepared for his evening outing he decided to wear his dress blues. It was rumored the president and the first lady would be in attendance at the evening’s performance. As a newly commissioned officer, and surgeon in the U.S. Army, he felt it was the appropriate attire. He was an admirer of the president and had been impressed with a speech he attended only a few days earlier.

Deciding to walk to the theater, he pulled his jacket collar up as the warm spring day gave way to a chill in the air. A curtain of haze was beginning to rise on the Potomac. The moon appeared full but, in stopping, he noticed it was a gibbous moon, not quite full. The unmistakable smell of a renewed season lingered in the cool night air. It was, however, this day, this perfect spring day that 23-year-old Dr. Charles Leale scarcely six weeks out of medical school life would be changed forever.

Two police officers were shot in Ferguson,Missouri and two cops were shot at a point-blank range while seated in their squad car in New York City.  In Madison, Wisconsin yet another unarmed young man of color was killed during an altercation with an officer. In every major urban area in the country protesters chant, “Black lives Matter.” Cops are afraid to do their job because of the insecurity they have about their responsibilities in enforcing the law. 

Just about everyone feels besieged; the crisis in confidence that further erodes American temperament is the subjectivity of media reporting. The crazies on all sides get the lion’s share of exposure because reckless comments draw viewership and  sell papers.  The shallow TV journalists appear more concerned with the right makeup, clothing or fashionable eye wear than with the news they report. 

The divide in America feels like a new Civil War. We are all secessionists.  We separate along race, politics, religion, heritage, schools, neighborhoods, words, and wealth.  We call the protests civil unrest. Why not just substitute the word war?  It is difficult to use the predicate word civil with the word society. God help you if you’re among the majority of centrists Americans; yours is the voice most commonly disparaged by those on the extreme ends of the political bell curve. Most of us fume in silent frustration. The union isn’t quite broken, but severely stressed. 

Shortly after intermission there was a commotion in the theater. Dr. Leale was summoned to the president’s box. As he scurried to the box he felt a rolling thunder of audience hysteria chasing him down the hallway. What must have he imagined he would be coming upon? He entered the box and the president was slumped in his chair. The first lady pleaded with him to help.  Initially, he thought the president had been stabbed.  He felt a light pulse and asked onlookers to help move the president to a recumbent position. Dr. Leale held his head and shoulders and, in caressing the back of the president’s head, came across a clot of blood with the little finger of his left hand.  It slid away.

He felt the gunshot hole. He turned and said solemnly, “This wound is mortal,” as the president’s blood streamed through the loving, cradling grasp of his left hand.

Do you remember the TV show “The Dukes of Hazzard” from the 80s? It was a series about two brothers living in a fictional town in rural Georgia. Harmless themes about the glory of the Confederacy were implicit during its five-year run.  A regular character named “Cooter” in the show was, in real life, Ben  Jones. He served two terms in the U.S. House of Representatives. Well, he and a bunch of his good old boys have a case pending in the United States Supreme Court.  They want the right to display the Confederate flag on their vanity license plates.  It was turned down by the Texas Dept. of Transportation. Ben, aka Cooter, and the boys argue they have a First Amendment right to display the flag.

The Texas DOT asserts the government issues license plates, thus it should be considered government speech. Therefore, their position is Cooter’s confederate flag plate is not constitutionally protected free speech. Does it really matter? People do have a constitutional right to be ignorant, hurtful, and boorish reprobates. Doesn’t this speak to a larger  issue about all of us?

April 14, 2015 will commemorate 150 years since the death of Abraham Lincoln.  Dr. Leale, who was holding Lincoln’s right hand when he passed, would later write that, by happenstance, he attended the slain presidents last address. In recalling him he would describe Lincoln’s “divine appearance as he stood in the rays of light, which penetrated the windows of the White House.”

Dr. Charles Leale

Dr. Charles Leale

Dr. Charles Leale’s mind must have been cluttered with thoughts, even decades after President Lincoln’s death. Nothing ever could, or would, be perfect again. Oh, sure,there would be other splendid spring days where he would pause and fill his lungs with fresh air but with each exhale his thoughts would drift back to that fateful night in April 1865.

Leale married, fathered six children and practiced medicine until 1928; he died 67 years after President Lincoln’s assassination. His was a good life. Dr. Leale, like all of us, had those periods of time when he was alone with his thoughts. Did he ever wonder what President Lincoln, whose hand he held in death, would have thought about how the country was evolving?

What would President Abraham Lincoln think of his beloved country 150 years after his passing?

I think he would weep.

Mise le Meas

Todd Robert Murphy pays attention.  You can contact him at at toddrobertmurphy@gmail.com

 

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Easter 2015

indexHow many Easters does this make for you?  15? 30? 75?  80? 90?  Here we go again with this Easter joy stuff.

When I was young Easter meant searching for colorful Easter eggs carefully hidden all around our house.  We kids had fun seeing how many we could uncover.  This year Easter means looking all around my house for a book I promised someone, the proverbial “car keys” and trying to remember who starred in a movie I just saw the other night.

During college, Easter meant a long break before final exams.  Time to travel somewhere or just do nothing for a couple of weeks.  Now Easter means a break from self-examination – a big chore in the Catholic Church – to just let go and enjoy that the salvation story is now complete.  What was promised was delivered, what was foretold became reality.

Growing up Easter meant hearing my dad sing the opening Latin song for Easter Vigil during Mass because he was the only one who could sing Latin, having attended St. Francis Seminary in Milwaukee.  This year Easter means I still can hear his strong voice fill the former St. Paul’s Church in Manitowoc.

Each Easter can be different for us because we have different issues as age piles upon age.  The miracle of Easter as a ten-year-old can become the reality of Easter for an 85-year-old.  The “egg search” of a six-year-old now becomes the search for peace and contentment knowing what was so elusive earlier in life is truly attainable – only if
we  hold onto and live the hope of this night
the mercy that this night won for us, stays and lives within us
the “patient suffering” that was taught to us by Jesus for forty days is now ours to own
the letting go of what’s held us down for years is witnessed by a mother holding her son for the last time.

This year, Easter is entirely new regardless of how many we’ve lived through because this is the Easter we’ve witnessed this time.

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The Handy Man

handymanserbThe problem is there and I’ve observed it every day.  Walking passed it each day I confirm to myself that there, indeed, is a problem.  “Yep, there’s a problem,” says my Masters Degree mind.  I’ve lo0ked online and the problem is real.  I’ve examine YouTube videos and found solutions to my problem but only if I take a week off of work, buy lots of stuff and hold the YouTube video in front me as I proceed to correct the problem.   (Rewinding is an important feature when using YouTube videos during home improvement.)

Being a priest I tried prayer but the problem was still there as I walked passed it.  The patron saint of lost causes must have been busy with others like myself.

It was a truck at a stop sign with an attractive sign that told me more about him than my car told him.  He’s a handy man who’s decided to go out on his own, he tells me after taking my call and only waiting two days.  “Business is bustling,” he shares with me as we shake hands.  I show him the problem and assure him that I’ve watched all the YouTube videos about it and could assist him at any stage if he felt is necessary.  The look he gave me was polite and priceless in the “nothing you could share part will fix what I see here.”  Yet with my all stature and education, I felt it important to convey to him my stature and education in spite of the fact that he needed to be standing in front of me with his truck blocking my car.

His tools were many and his small talk was even smaller.  I tried the stature approach once more and tell him what I do for a living and his response is, “Good for you.”  I was also hoping from him further explorations into the matrix of my complex job but he simply opened his box of tricks containing items I vaguely remember seeing on YouTube videos.

One hour.  He told me the charge before he began.  One hour.  One of his against at least five of mine for the job that needed to be done.  He says, “cash or credit?” and I know that cash is the better choice but wondered about more.  When giving a tip, I believe that if you can give 10.00 then you can give 20.00.  So 20.00 it was above his normal charge.  He thanked me as we shook hands and he was off to his next Masters Degree job.

After he left I sat down, relieved that it was finally fixed.  The month I denied it, the month I thought about it, the next month I prayed about it and the following YouTube videos month.  My fours months was accomplished by him in one hour.

“A jack of all trades and a master of…” has always intrigued me.  I have the one and his has the many.  How he got his and I did not mystifies me.  It was a truck at a stop sign.  A GED guy?  I don’t know.  A loser working for employers?  I didn’t check.  For four months I could have been considering many wonderful and ponderful things (I know it’s not a word but it sounds good) but in the end I needed a handy man, a very nice man who did his job in efficient time and now I’m 10.00 dollars less.

But the problem?  The problem’s been solved.

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An Anticipating Culture

2ele3apI don’t know about the rest of the world but here in the U.S. we just can’t wait.  The sad part is probably because of exhaustion from all planning once the event has arrived it’s completely forgotten.

We already know that Christmas is now a “season” and not really a day anymore that begins immediately after Halloween.  “Jingle Bells” in early November still makes me wince.  Try saying “Happy Thanksgiving on “Black Friday” and you’ll get the look that says, “that was yesterday, where have you been?”  Belated birthdays is my favorite when I wish someone yearly greetings and the response is, “It was yesterday but thanks.”  Damn, I missed it by twelve hours.

We all realize the business aspect to anticipation.  Walgreen’s can’t wait to get the Easter eggs on the shelves before we even have ashes placed on our foreheads.  (Doesn’t Jesus need to die first before resurrecting or is it just me?)

Looking forward to anything is a wonderful experience and often more rewarding then the happening.  Turning sixty was anticipated by me for six months and when I woke up on that fateful day I thought, “Oh, okay” and I went to work.

Try saying “Merry Christmas” to someone on December 26 and the same look will be given to you because the anticipation now is forwarded to New Year’s Eve.

Presidential races start far too soon for the average consumer to consume topics that will not be topical in two years.  Weddings are far too anticipated as though the sun has finally melded with the moon.  I understand the details in wedding planning but I now receive a postcard announcing that a postcard will soon arrive with blissful details about the sun and moon melding.

If you see me, please wish me a “Happy Birthday” a day or two after the date because I believe in octaves.  “Merry Christmas” is wonderful for me to hear from the 24 through January 1.  And January 1?  I hope that you have a “Happy New Year” every day of every year of your life.

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Things Said At Funerals

thYou always hear glowing and bold qualities attributed to the person in the coffin or in the small walnut box.  Grandiose qualities that make you wonder why peace has not been achieved in the world or a stronger economy achieved or promising talks between Israel and Palestine.  “What a guy,” we say to ourselves as qualities are freely thrown about until the service is ended and the food is served.  I say to myself, “I thought he was accountant?”

As someone who’s officiated more funerals than weddings, I wish I heard more of what I experienced in the life of someone I cared about.

People I know have good qualities but the enduring memories for me is the “smells and bells” as Catholic say.  It’s the cinnamon on buttered buns and placed in the oven before we arrived so that we’d smell them as we entered the kitchen.  It’s the holy water crossed on our foreheads at night as though it counted as a blessing from a layperson.  (However being 10 years old, I accepted it as a an acceptable Catholic practice from a parent to a child.)

Cigar smoke, Old Spice from my dad and Estee Lauder on my mom (if I even get to smell them these days), a head laid on a sun dried, ironed pillow case that assured me that my D in arithmetic meant other options would be available to me twenty years down the road.  My mother had a habit of rubbing her index and middle finger together and my dad had a smirk that told us kids that he had no idea what we were talking about but that he’d still listen.

Friends’ memories include Lou Rawls singing, “You’ll Never Find,” and surprisingly, Janis Joplin with “A Little Piece of My Heart” from a demure friend.  Eating pizza by myself can conjure passed friends and the fun nights we had together.  At my dad’s funeral a priest friend did the cemetery service and used one of my dad’s cigar as incense.  It meant a lot to my family.  (The smoke lifted upward too!)

The bold qualities are what we hear in the public time of a funeral but I think what lasts is the smells and bells.  And they reappear to us when we least expect them which makes it the best in remembering them and then in remembering them again.

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The Days Before Easter, Triduum

thThree days.  We have three days or is it rather a week or is it a month or even maybe years….
Three feelings melded into one with always a happy ending at the end.  Three feelings that hit both ends of the spectrum of feelings and the Church condenses them for us into three days.

The Church’s condensation of feelings ends with a happy ending, much like most of the movies we watch again and again because of that happy ending that ends, happily.  That’s what we imagine our lives to be.  Those are the stories told to us by our parents to help us sleep at night, those are the illusions that even 80 year old can hold on to.

“It’ll work out,” says the mom to you as she turns off your light.  “It’ll be alright,” is the anthem we hum each day to see us through each day.

“It’ll work out” and “It’ll be alright” should be placed on our coins and dollar bills because we believe in it so strongly.

Three days is what we honor once a year -there’s a union to these days, in other words if you come to one and not another you miss the flow, the continuity, the seamlessness that combines these three days.  When I was in parishes, it was always Good Friday that drew the largest crowd.  You can figure it out for yourselves why that was the case, I have my own opinion.  Saturday Night Vigil?  “Oh, that’s the long, boring service, I’m skipping it.”

How many of us want to jump to redemption without the redeeming part?  How many of us want the promise of eternal life instead of living the living part?  How many of us want the glory without the price paid for it?

Three days.  You cannot have the last day without experiencing the first day with the second one in the middle.  There is no jumping to the last day without knowing and appreciating the power and significance of day one and day two.  You cannot experience Easter without the cross.  You have no idea of joy until pain has settled in your heart.  There is no peace without discord.

How can there be those feelings without the feelings that bring those feelings to you?  We’re comfortable in our comfortable homes and Jesus wants to rock our smooth sailing boats a bit.  This new pope is trying to do the same thing unlike his last two predecessors.

Three days.  Today is celebration and fellowship in the midst of something pending.  Unknown but somehow known.

“It’s cancer.”  “Oh, no it can’t be.  We need to wait for all the tests to get back to us.”  “You have six months to live.”  “Forget the doctor darling, you know you can beat this.”  “Your granddaughter flunked her SAT’s.”  “That school wasn’t meant for her anyway, she can go to any college she chooses.”    Tonight is the celebration of fellowship and waiting for the unknown, the pending.

Tomorrow, on Friday, we know all too well.  Tomorrow is the giving up and giving in of everything and anything human.  Tomorrow is the destruction of humanity in order to rebuilt it again and again and again and again.  We know Friday all too well, perhaps that is why the crowds are larger that day.

Saturday night and Sunday is the unreal made real.  The preposterous is held out before us to shock us into the humanity God wanted for us all along, from the very beginning.  Perhaps the longer we live the less shocking it becomes for us because we know that Easter is coming, we know the ending of the fairy tale we call the Christian faith.

The celebration of Thursday is enjoyed by everyone who attended and we missed those who weren’t able to be there.  The crushing news of the Friday service makes everyone numb with doubt and pain.  Then Saturday evening arrives and we are amazed by a different and new kind of hope.  It was not the hope of the family’s wishes or the doctor’s or of yours.  It was the hope of God for which we have little understanding.

The person you dearly loved died of cancer.  The doctors were right, he lasted five months and they gave him six.  She didn’t get into the college she wanted but is at a tech school to get her grades up to speed.

The stories are endless.  Take your pick.  But the hope of these three days is the same hope we all share and believe in even when we don’t say it or admit it.

Three days.  Don’t miss one of them or you’ll miss them all.  Don’t miss any of them or you’ll miss the necessary pain and heartache and you will also miss out on the sublime and divine hope that we neither understand or know about but dutifully honor this and every year.

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Who Are You When You’re No Longer Who You Were?

thIt was the neatly carved out segments that created your day for over forty years.  Each had a purpose and when one ended the next one began.

Then came the “gold watch” that you never received and now suddenly on Monday morning the whole day becomes a segment.  Filling it seems impossible following the comfort of the previous experience.  “Options” and “choices” were not part of your vocabulary during those years but now they haunt you from the moment you get out of bed, whatever time that may be.

Who you were was that job that consumed energy and interests – perhaps even sleepless nights with a morning decision or deadlines that were almost missed.  The familiar and new faces over the many years, the tasks and duties that provided for your family were gone when you left that last day with a box containing your family picture, paper clips and stapler (we should always take a little something when we leave, don’t you think?).

9:00 a.m. on the morning you’ve been waiting for, for all those long years has arrived.  It’s cloudy with a chance of rain and you believe that to be true about yourself as well.  Options and choices continue to ring in your ears.  A slow breakfast is your first thought but wondering if you’ll create a new pattern of daily breakfasts like that.   Volunteering for that favorite charity comes to mind but then slowly seems to dwindle as the hours seem longer now than they did before.  “The ‘Price is Right’ is on now but watching crazy people in your bathrobe just doesn’t seem right.  “There’s golf,” but at your age if you didn’t play it before then you will not play it now.

At parties or gatherings how long does it take before the most important question is asked of you or you ask it to someone, “So, what do you do?”  Identity is then connected by the occupation that occupied your segments for all those years.  Saying “retired” seems to move the person to the next person.  “Oh, you’re lucky,” says the new person wondering if she’ll watch “The Price is Right” only a few years from now.

A friend gave me one of the best lines for life, “you are in old age as you’ve always been, only more so.”  The “were” that distracts you now is only answered by the same question a teenager asks, “who are you?”  “Were” looks back at a time that no longer exists and is over.  “Who” is always the question that is never quite completely answered but clues are given throughout our long lives.

You slowly forget the “gold watch” that you never received and look for the “gold” that is always before you.  It is the “who” that you’ve always been and will continue to be.  The interesting part is the “more so.”  How can you fill these new segments with “more so” of yourself?

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Homage or Plagiarism?

pharrell-800Following music today gets sketchy for someone like me who still misses “Spanky and Our Gang” but I’ll try.

Robin and Pharrell wrote a song that appears to be mimicking one written by Marvin Gaye, enough for the court to let these two lads pay millions of dollars that you and I cannot imagine having but less parting with it.  (They both have enough left so sympathy is not necessary.)

I liked the comparison of homage against plagiarism that Pharrell gave.  He’s defending himself against the latter in favor the former.  For a Christian, both words have power and influence in our lives.  We pay homage to Christ by plagiarism in any shape and form in order for us to be renewed, revived and reignited for our tasks ahead.  Pharrell losing the former meant guilty to the latter, the latter being somewhat emptying his pocketbook.

For all we know Jesus’ mother Mary may still be alive and well and living in Ephesus and listening to my sermons where I homage her son daily with plagiarism.  Not that Mary would get much from me but the trial would be interesting when my attorney argues that Father talks a good talk but check out his daily life and you’ll see little if any plagiarism and only a token of homage.  (That’s my cue to humbly put my head down to convince the jury.)

Musically, I’d side with Pharrell by the homage he pays to those who paved the way for him to make millions upon millions.  In the 1960’s every song had four chords, repeated in variation but always within that limited number.  All the music sold well for all of them.

My homage to the Son of God is the four chords of charity, forgiveness (self and others), mercy and wisdom.  I’ll repeat them again and again in my sermons in various ways but always with those same four chords.  The plagiarism charge I’ll leave to the Blessed Mother and her attorneys, “Bible, Bible and Sons.”  As for my daily behavior, I have the same challenge we all have to pay both homage and plagiarism to the one who sustains and guides our lives.  There’s are no “blurred lines” with that last sentence.

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The Need for Divas

andy_warhol_marilyn_monroe09From Italian to Latin, diva literally means “goddess.”  “Well, there is no goddess in our God-fearing U.S.,” says the manly man with a Marilyn Monroe poster in his office not knowing why it’s still hanging there.

If there’s a hole in our lives it will be filled.  If there’s an opening for something to complete us, it will be filled.  The unconscious has a nasty but wonderful way of doing that to us.  We are often not aware of it but those ruminations are bubbling underneath that small thing we call ego.  The Blessed Mother does it for the Catholic Church and Beyonce does it now for two generations behind me.  Barbra (no last name needed) does it for my generation as Loretta Young did it for two generations ahead of me.  Oh wait.  If it wasn’t Loretta then it was Grace Kelly or even Bette Davis or Joan Crawford depending how your ruminations ruminated.

Male world.  Man’s world.  Masculine/feminine – the balance is there deep within our lives but the reality favors the first over the second.

I love that the unconscious will always win out.  Why?  Because it’s the most holistic part of us that represents all of us (archetype) and slowly bubbles over and forth until a balance is reached or at least an acknowledgment is made of its existence.  Diana Ross?  Done deal.  She is the real deal.

Mother-types?  It’s a stretch but not one to stew over.  It’s too easy to dismiss the “mother” thing.  Some of them we may wish to be mothers but I wouldn’t suggest Joan Crawford. (See the movie!)  Actually, I wouldn’t suggest any of them because it is not “mom” we unconsciously yearn for but it’s the balance of masculine and feminine.  (Notice it’s not male/female because that’s physical but it’s the wholeness of our lives that the ruminations yearn for.)

Oh, I forgot to mention Madonna (interesting name?) who resurfaces again and again because I think she knows what I’m saying.  Her family’s Italian name just doesn’t have the same power or ring as her balancing act of acting out the opposite of the purer holder of that name.

I hope this doesn’t surprise you because this balance is way off in our present culture.  Those divas will continue to command applause and adulation unless their power is recognized in our conscious minds.  Marilyn’s been dead for how long now?

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The Unlikely Father of God

St_Joseph__Jesus.266220525_stdIn our team meetings about who’d play the role, we’d never choose Joseph for the second most important role in salvation history.  Fellow employees would laugh at my suggestion of offering him the part.  They’d tell me to take a break and come back when I had a solid choice for this revered role.  It needs to be correct the first time because there is no second take on rolling off the role of Jesus’ earthly father.  “House of David” is the only thing our casting crew can agree upon.  The rest seems up for grabs.

But I did not need a break after all because finally the group gives in to choosing the humble guy, the quiet guy, the “character-actor” we’ve seen hundreds of times on TV and in movies but whose name we just can’t remember.  I guess we couldn’t upstage the second lead, Mary, with some famed person.  It wouldn’t be right.  The part had to go to the unassuming guy whose character can be whatever you want him to be, because of the little we know about him.

Mary has made up parents to complete her but we couldn’t even invent two folks to birth Joseph.  Ozzie & Harriet?  Rob and Laura?  Ralph & Alice?  Bob and Emily?  Ward and June?  Nope, no association to even solidify his Jewish roots was the necessary plant for the Son of God.

Historians tell us that there was no census, there was no need for one.  There was no flight to Egypt (can you even imagine traveling there on a donkey with no flyer miles!?)  Jesus probably was not lost in the temple either while his parents went shopping and somehow forgot they had a son.  (I’d understand if they had four kids but to misplace one?)

For me it’s the dreams that clinched the part for Joseph, with no last name either.  Like the Old Testament Joseph, the dreams are what makes him memorable and important to this age old story.  Dreams of caution, trust and guidance were heeded by New Testament Joe that protected and sheltered this small family as any father would provide.

He’s now abused and honored centuries later.  The abuse is burying him in some direction to get a quick sale on your home and the honor is he’s the one who had what the Church calls “a happy death,” if that’s even possible.  I guess with your Son and Mary at your bedside, the transition could be a little less painful.  March 19 is Joseph the Husband and May 1 is Joseph the Worker.  I’ve always honored March 19.  Work is too difficult but dreaming is always fruitful and fun.

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