Soulful Muse

Frank Sinatra got it right when he sang, “That’s Life.” He sings for us life’s “six nouns.” Six descriptive words that plant us squarely into the call we all have received.

We think of “The Call” as something for a priest, brother or sister. Through our baptism we have all been called – chosen – to complete this gift of life with all the life we have to offer.

Unfolding our gifts, renewing our gifts – using our gifts to better our world. It’s a tall order for anyone but truly we each contribute to it.

Frank sings, “You’re ridin’ high in the month _______, shot down during the month of ______.”

Leo and Kate with extended arms at the bow of the ship (April) a short time later freezing together near Iceland, yes, May.

Six nouns, Frank gives us to summarize our lives at different points. We wish to hold on to one of them but life makes us experience all six and sometimes life repeats itself again and again to show us the fullness of life.

But the beauty of this unfolding life of ours remains that darn call – a call that might keep us awake at night if we don’t answer the call, a call that wakes us up early because we can’t wait to get to work again, a call that even retirement can’t diminish. A call that’s as passionate as breathing is to the body. The call is the call that excites untested young people as it slowly reveals itself or the call can become the dreaded nightmare for the 40 year-old who didn’t respond when the call called.

The first noun is for the corporation we represent, the second noun is for the payment we never think is enough; Noun three is for retelling stories others told us and making them our own; The fourth noun is that we do have moments when the words we speak and mean are truly our own; Number five is who else can do our job either better or more cheaply? and the last noun, we’re the one doing something great right now, this very moment – each in our own way – and we love it.

Frank sings,

“I’ve been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing
Each time I find myself layin’ flat on my face
I just pick myself up and get back in the race..

That’s the stamina of our call – both during the good times and still smoldering during those low times. (I like to call it our life’s “pilot light” that never goes out.) A young man was interviewing people at Alexian Village for his podcast so he interviewed me. In general ways, I mentioned ups and downs in my life. He wanted details and I replied that they are mine, mine alone. He then asked me what I would change in my life as though to smooth out my life’s rough edges or the parts I regret. I told him that I wouldn’t change a thing because then I wouldn’t be who I am now, the person I am now. Those successes, failures, near misses and misses and happy times all make up my life – and your life too. To “smooth out” as only a young person would say would have been to “miss out” on this adventure of life – complete with its squarely planted call. A call to be the people that God created us to be.

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for the corporation we represent
Puppet
for the payment we never think is enough
Pauper
for retelling stories others told us and making them our own
Pirate
we do have moments when the words spoken are truly ours
Poet
who else can do our job either better or more cheaply?
Pawn
and
King – we’re the one doing something great right now, this very moment – each in our own way and we love it.

books by Fr. Joe Jagodensky, SDS, available in paperback or Kindle at Amazon:
“Soulful Musings”
“Living Faith’s Mysteries”
“Spiritual Wonderings and Wanderings”

He looked out his celestial window on that seventh day and saw that “It was good.” Creation began and continues this very moment. He saw the many colors outside his window. From his heavenly vantage, he saw possibilities, promise.

She gazed out her window and witnessed the hustle and bustle as a new day began. Was this day to bring something new or merely a yesterday’ repeat? It can only be told at the end of this beginning day. Did she see possibilities for all those anonymous faces passing by her window? Could she see promise in the way they walked – quick steps to get to work on time or were they the slower steps of a retired chap whose time is no longer measured by a 9-5 clock.

He gazed down at us and was hurt by the destruction we were destroying so he decided to start all over again in spite of his perfect, first creation. He destroyed what we were trying to destroy – ourselves. So he looked hard through his heavenly window and sent floods upon floods until the cleansing was complete. He then inspected his new world, now containing two of each, and offered us a dove and a rainbow vowing that he would never, ever do that kind of damage to us again. He promised us. He’s kept his promise.

Taking a look out her window causes her to bring her reflection back to herself in her own, private thoughts. Promises made; her promises and those made to her, some broken and others forgotten along with her fulfilled promises are her thoughts as she studied the passerbys carrying their briefcases, relying on canes, holding hands or holding out a hand looking for a free dollar. She saw much and reflected upon much.

He, by the way, never really apologized for those floods but he kept a promise he made to all the ancient prophets. He inspired them to talk to everyone they met about a “covenant” that would beat all other covenants. “Unbreakable,” he told those prophets. “Written in their hearts,” he assured them – nothing to be taught, just lived. A covenant of reconciliation and mercy. Two words that only he can fulfill.

She was frugal as only her generation could do. Even her bus fare became a big decision.  “Dasent (a word from her era),  Dasent spend what you don’t need. I’ll walk.” She’d window shop but never stopping to buy, isn’t that the “Georgy Girl” song? Observing and taking in the sights of sounds of the busiest city in the world.

Observing, absorbing, reflecting. Pretty good and meaty words for us impulsive types. It’s the three-word-process that leads to a decision. It’s the three-word-process that leads toward a belief. It’s the three-word-process that makes an idea a value.

He thought his window was getting kinda dirty but then realized that he was looking squarely outside and downside and saw things unraveling yet again. That flood-thing wouldn’t work for him a second time. He promised us. He studied what he saw through his divine window, smiled in agreement with his thought and sent his son to show us how to see from one window to the outside  – one person’s to the next person’s window. He instructed his son to emphasize “hope.” “You can’t say ‘hope’ enough to those folks down there,” he tells his son after Mary is made his designated-mom.

Catching a glimpse of someone who looks like her grandchild or great-grandchild, a silent prayer is offered by her to the guy up there and to that growing person down here. She smiles hoping that her prayer is not just a wish but a sincere hope for their unknown stumbles, their misguided decisions but most importantly their rewards to express their right talents in the right job.

He sent us his only son. It has a happy ending if you don’t mind my “spoiler alert.” But the problem is that he still looks outside his window and continues to rely upon us – each and every one of us – to make his creation the way he created it and rested after, on that seventh day. We still don’t seem to get, do we? Perhaps if he had other children to send us? No.

I envy those two people. They both had wonderful, clear windows to observe, absorb and reflect. Mine looks out at my neighbor’s garage. (He keeps it quite orderly.) But it’s my view that views the world full of other views and still more differing viewpoints.

If images are your thing and the Church loves images then God is the window to all that can be and will be. I’m sure she learned in her many years that Jesus Christ was the glass- Jesus is the means to recognize the God-window that contains him. The Holy Spirit? That’s easy when you live in an older home. Insulation isn’t that great so the Holy Spirit gets to float and permeate every part of our lives. Together this Trinity blesses our lives every day as it blessed hers, it’s the Spirit that stops us, when necessary, but no longer with a flood but now spoken through a caring friend or spouse, a Spirit that offers us possibilities and promises the way he created the world to be. The best of all is that repeated message he gave to his son – give them hope, lots of hope for both today and tomorrow.

And, add in a lot of Windex.

books by Fr. Joe Jagodensky, SDS, available in paperback or Kindle at Amazon:
“Soulful Musings”
“Living Life’s Mysteries”
“Spiritual Wonderings and Wanderings”

I’m 64 years old but what’s talking are those calendars piling up my years, it’s not me talking.

If I ever see “In Search of the Castaways” with Harley Mills I’ll be 8 years old again. Those days, we could stay and watch the movie a second time; and we did.

If “The Letter” by “The Boxtops” comes on the radio then I’m 15 years-old and at a weekend retreat at St. Norbert’s College in DePere, Wisconsin. The four of us seminarians plot to steal all the 45-records in the Top 30 that week at the local store. I think we failed to complete our theft-quest but that song along with “Pictures of Matchstick Men,” by “Status Quo” was among our ill-gotten gains. (I think it was “put the records in your front pants” routine.) Didn’t get caught.

When I preside at Mass, it’s the 25-year-old that wants to say what’s on his mind because it’s of extreme important but the 55-year-old reviews the message and the 64-year-old refrains from saying it.  “Whew. That was close.” And all those unwritten letters to the pastor.

The 25-year-old in me drives like a 25-year-old but the 64 butts in and tells the 25-year-old that yellow is not a suggestion but an urgent message to stop before it turns red. (The 64 also prays that no one who’s 25 years old is behind him without that earned wisdom.)

Discovering symphony music late in life, it’s the 64-year-old who remembers hearing it the first time at 30 and wishing that enjoyment began in his teens. (Oh well, better late than…?)

The 28-year-old learned and is all set to implement every Church law but the 64 has earned compassion and mercy. (I still got a “B” in Canon Law!)

The 64-year-old watches an old movie and the 15-year-old tears well up and tears run out. My 64 smiles at my 15 and thinks, “Oh, just go ahead.”

The 64-year-old reads the newspaper at my calendar age but with the passion of a college-age graduate thinking that something, somewhere can improve and be different; “If only…”  I hope to never lose that promising age of promises if I live to be 74.

I begin Mass at 28 years-old, the year of my ordination. My sermon is a combined combination of 28, 38, 48 years and now at 64 years, it’s all about proclaiming heartfelt messages of hope and peace.  I bow before the altar at the end of Mass and return to that 28-year-old wondering why I’m the one doing this and not someone else. (It only lasts a short while until I become 64 again and realize the “why.”)

But please don’t discount my wavering ages when “The Buckinghams” sing, “Don’t You Care” or “The Young Rascals” sing, “I Don’t Love You Anymore” that I don’t revert – no, I return to that glorious time of youth that brought me to this glorious age.

Am I 64 years old?  The Beatles would say “Yes,” but I’m not so sure about that.

books by Fr. Joe Jagodensky, SDS, available in paperback or Kindle at Amazon:
“Soulful Musings”
“Living Faith’s Mysteries”
“Spiritual Wonderings and Wanderings”

“A Christmas Carol,” 1951, Alastair Sim, (The only version worthwhile)

 Spirit of Christmas Present: says, My time with you is at an end, Ebenezer Scrooge. Will you profit from what I’ve shown you of the good in most men’s hearts?

Ebenezer: I don’t know, how can I promise!

Spirit of Christmas Present: If it’s too hard a lesson for you to learn, then learn this lesson!

[opens his robe, revealing two starving children]

Ebenezer: [shocked] Spirit, are these yours?

Spirit of Christmas Present: They are Man’s. This boy is Ignorance, this girl is Want. Beware them both, but most of all, beware this boy!

Ebenezer: But have they no refuge, no resource?

Spirit of Christmas Present: To quote you, “Are there no prisons? Are there no workhouses?”

First Collector: At this festive time of year, Mr. Scrooge, it is more than usually desirable that we should make some slight provision for the poor and destitute.

Ebenezer: Are there no prisons?

First Collector: Plenty of prisons.

Ebenezer: And the union workhouses – are they still in operation?

First Collector: They are. I wish I could say they were not.

Ebenezer: Oh, from what you said at first I was afraid that something had happened to stop them in their useful course. I’m very glad to hear it.

First Collector: I don’t think you quite understand us, sir. A few of us are endeavoring to buy the poor some meat and drink, and means of warmth.

Ebenezer: Why?

First Collector: Because it is at Christmastime that want is most keenly felt, and abundance rejoices. Now what can I put you down for?

Ebenezer: Huh! Nothing!

Second Collector: So, that’s fine, you wish to be anonymous?

Ebenezer: [firmly, but calmly] I wish to be left alone. Since you ask me what I wish sir, that is my answer. I help to support the establishments I have named; those who are badly off must go there.

First Collector: Many can’t go there.

Second Collector: And some would rather die.

(My second favorite quote from the movie:)

Scrooge: “Is that you Marley or you may be an undigested bit of beef, a blot of mustard, a crumb of cheese, a fragment of underdone potato. There’s more of gravy than of grave about you, whatever you are!”

Marley: I wear the chain I forged in life! I made it link by link and yard by yard! I gartered it on of my own free will and by my own free will, I wore it!

Ebenezer: But it was only that you were an honest man of business!

Jacob Marley: BUSINESS? Mankind was my business! Their common welfare was my business! Ah! You do not know the weight and length of the strong chain you bear yourself! It was as full and as long as this seven Christmas eves ago and you have labored on it since. Ah, it is a ponderous chain!

Spirit of Christmas Past: Your sister, Scrooge, was always a delicate creature, of whom a breath might have withered, but she had a large heart.

Ebenezer: My sister, indeed, had a loving heart.

Spirit of Christmas Past: She dies a married woman and had, I think, children.

Ebenezer: One child.

Spirit of Christmas Past: It’s your nephew, I believe.

Ebenezer: She died giving him life.

Spirit of Christmas Past: As your mother died giving you life, for which your father never forgave you, as if you were to blame for her death.

Ebenezer: [to the Spirit of Christmas Yet To Come] Am I standing in the presence of the Spirit of Christmas Yet To Come? And you’re going to show me the shadows of things that have not yet happened but will happen? Spirit of the Future, I fear you more than any spectre I have met tonight! But even in my fear, I must say that I am too old! I cannot change! I cannot! It’s not that I’m impenitent, it’s just… Wouldn’t it be better if I just went home to bed? No? Well, very well. Lead on.

(To his nephew’s wife,) “Can you forgive a pig-headed old fool with no eyes to see with and no ears to hear with all these years?”

(To Bob Crachet in the office on the day after Christmas late as usual:) “Well, my friend, I’m not going to beat around the bush. I’m simply not going to stand this sort of thing any longer. Which leaves me no choice…but to raise your salary.”

[starts laughing hysterically]

Ebenezer: You’ll want the whole day off tomorrow, I suppose.

Bob Cratchit: If quite convenient, sir.

(My favorite quote from the movie:)

Ebenezer: It’s not convenient. And it’s not fair! If I stopped you half a crown for it, you’d think yourself ill used, wouldn’t you? But you don’t think me ill used if I pay a full day’s wages for no work, hmm?

Bob Cratchit: ‘Tis only once a year, sir.

Ebenezer: That’s a poor excuse for picking a man’s pocket every 25th of December.

Bob Cratchit: Yes, sir. I’m sure…I’m very sorry, sir, to cause you such an inconvenience. It’s the family more than me, sir. They put their hearts into Christmas as it were, sir.

Ebenezer: Yes, and put their hands into my pockets as it were, sir. I suppose you’d better have the whole day. But be back all the earlier the next morning.

Bob Cratchit: I will indeed, sir. Thank you, sir! It’s more than generous of you, sir.

Ebenezer: Yes, I know it is, you don’t have to tell me.

(That’s why we have unions)

Ebenezer: [grumpily] I don’t deserve to be so happy.

[starts laughing uncontrollably again]

Ebenezer: I can’t help it!

Housekeeper: “Merry Christmas, Mr. Scrooge! In keeping with the situation!”

To the ghost of Christmas Past: Ebenezer: What is your business here?

Spirit of Christmas Past: Your welfare.

Ebenezer: My welfare?

Spirit of Christmas Past: Your reclamation, then. Take heed, rise, and walk with me.

Spirit of Christmas Past: And as your business prospered, Ebenezer Scrooge, a golden idol took possession of your heart.

Ebenezer: What do you want with me?

Jacob Marley: Much.

Jacob Marley: It is required of every man that the spirit within him should walk abroad among his fellow men! If it goes not forth in life, it is condemned to do so after death! It is doomed to wander through the world! Oh, woe is me! And witness what it cannot share but MIGHT HAVE SHARED on Earth and turned to happiness! In life, my spirit never rose beyond the limits of our money-changing holes! Now I am doomed to wander without rest or peace, incessant torture and remorse!

Ebenezer: But it was only that you were a good man of business, Jacob!

Jacob Marley: BUSINESS? Mankind was my business! Their common welfare was my business! And it is at this time of the rolling year that I suffer most!

Ebenezer: to his housekeeper, [Giggling] No. Mrs. Dilber – I’m not mad. I want to raise your salary from 2 shillings a week to 16.

Housekeeper: Do you want to see a doctor?

Ebenezer: A doctor? Certainly not, nor the undertaker!

Ebenezer: I’ll send this turkey to Bob Cratchit, and he shan’t know who sent it. It’s twice the size of Tiny Tim!

Ebenezer: (Here’s the essence of religion and belief…somber voice:) “I don’t know anything, I never did know anything, but now I know that I don’t know, all on a Christmas morning.”

Ebenezer: Go, and redeem some other promising young creature, but leave me to keep Christmas in my own way.

Tiny Tim: God bless us, every one!

Ebenezer: I don’t deserve to be so happy.

Ebenezer: But I can’t help it.

Ebenezer: I-I I just can’t help it.

Ebenezer: Shall I stand on my head? I must stand on my head.

The pizza guy is coming or so the girl told me on the phone. She’s the girl who sounds like she just graduated from grade school and my phone call is an inconvenience in her pending but unplanned life.  We rumble through our conversation often repeating things three times, but the plan is finally set.  “One hour,” she tells me as I suspect she tells everyone who interrupts her cell phone fumblings.

But now what? The “what” is that I need to wait one hour.

What to I do during this forced “time-out” awaiting a delivery that their website promised “quick service?” This is my unknown-time between hanging up the phone (Who does that these days, anyway?!) and the delivery.  Dust?  Vacuum?  Tolstoy? Run to the store and buy a pizza and be back in time for “delivery boy?”  I just wait just like I’ve always done for those delivering services to my humble abode.

Cable guy is the best person to wait for.  Do I shake his hand and welcome him or just direct him to my dysfunctional TV box? “Coffee, water?”  After all, it’s not a dinner party but I’m thinking I also invited this guy to my house.

Plumber guy is the worst person to wait for.  I would pay top dollar if he (rarely a “she”) would just quickly arrive and do the magic to my toilet so I can stop pacing with my legs crossed.

I’m told that U.S. folks love to wait in line more than other countries but you’d never know it at a traffic stop sign. We’ll wait to save some money on a television at 5:00 a.m. on a Black Friday but will dart out in traffic at the one-second sighting of the yellow light.  We’ll patiently stand in line for hours for tickets for a show but will wait (but not “wait”) for the phone to ring about your cancer diagnosis.  “Two weeks,” the doctors tells you.  Doctors love to say “two weeks” before they know the results.

Waiting is the emptying of the mind when it is usually full of thoughts and activities.  We’re left with nothing except that damn ticking clock and this expected person who has not arrived yet.  The clock marks nothing except that we are still waiting.  (I’m writing this only to kill time until the clock stops ticking; alas, it has not.)

“My daughter said she’d call me tonight, I guess she was busy,” says the mom who waited. “My son was all set to visit me but something came up at work, he told me,” says the dad who was waiting for that visit for two months.

We have a automatic disposition about waiting, I guess.  We either “blank-out” or are energized by this timeless period which actually has a set “time.”  We don’t mind waiting for those things that are important, fun and exciting for us at a particular time and we dread the hour that felt like two, waiting for those things that we need.  Like a cancer diagnosis and a pizza on a Friday night.

books by Fr. Joe Jagodensky, SDS, available in paperback or Kindle at Amazon:
“Soulful Musings”
“Living Faith’s Mysteries”
“Spiritual Wonderings and Wanderings”