Unchanging Thighs

“God grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

thAll right, I have something important to tell you. It’s not easy to talk about it but my therapist said that, “Talking about it will make a difference in my life.”

I have a condition. Oh wait. It’s not a condition and it’s not a disease. I have a syndrome. (It could be a disease with even more sympathy but, alas I only have a syndrome.) It’s suffer (note the verb) from FTS. So, okay, so you don’t know what it is but it still plagues me. It’s defined as “Fat Thigh Syndrome.” FTS. It started years ago and seems to expand as my age expands.

My therapist tells me that Pfizer is working on a medication but I can only imagine its side effects: dizziness, memory loss, weight loss. All of the things I already experience. My therapist concludes each session by singing the Billy Joel song, “I Want You Just the Way You Are” but it doesn’t help me much.

Well, that’s my story, I mean that’s my worry. What’s yours? What worries you during the day or awakens you at night? What worries you? I’m waiting for a support group to begin for us FTS sufferers but it appears I’m the only one with this malady.

Oh well. I have no control over my FTS but I like worrying about it. I can’t do anything about it but thinking and praying about it keeps me focused on my FTS, along with my lack of medication, support groups and a Billy Joel musical refrain. I can change nothing about my FTS except keep dwelling on it… constantly.

courage to change the things I can,

I guess I could reconsider my racial views or those unemployed folks that I dismiss or those foreign folks who want to live here or my neighbor’s crusty behavior or my unmarried daughter living with her boyfriend. In the age of our quick, rapid news – perhaps discovering the difference between opinions and facts and then assimilating both opinion and facts to uncover a kernel of truth.

I am able to change my perspective on those things and many more attitudes like that. But, well, that would take work and effort on my part. It would require reflection and prayer. It would demand examining my life against God’s life. It would require to uncover where the two meet and where those two often fail to meet. God and me, Church and me. To that I say, another syndrome, TMW – “too much work.”

I like suffering with my FTS. It’s comfortable to worry about because there is no solution. I can worry forever about those two appendages hanging on both sides of me. Is this the time for a call of conversion on my part or as Scriptures calls it “A change of heart?”

However, I would appreciate a card from each of you telling me about your sympathy for my chronic, suffering, ego-centric, self absorbing, and “All about me” disease, I mean syndrome.

Will I die from this syndrome? I suppose not but I believe that my heart may still be beating but not in sync with my soul. With that lost unity between God and me, then what’s the point of life? And that’s a loss for all of us, especially me.

Sorry folks. I choose FTS over TMW. After all, it may not be Christlike or Catholic but it’s truly the American way.

and wisdom to know the difference.”

“God, give me grace to accept with serenity the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things which should be changed, and the
Wisdom to distinguish the one from the other.
Living one day at a time, Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did, This sinful world as it is, Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next. Amen.”

Books by Fr. Joe Jagodensky, SDS. All available on Amazon.com
“Soulful Muse,”
inspirational reflections on the Catholic Church and U.S. culture
Living Faith’s Mysteries,”
inspirational reflections on the Christian seasons
of Advent/Christmas & Lent/Easter
“Spiritual Wonderings and Wanderings,”
inspirational reflections on the Catholic Church and U.S. culture
“Letters From My Cats,”
a collection of letters written by my cats over twenty years
“Bowling Through Life’s Stages with a Christian perspective,”
Bowling as a metaphor for religion and growing up

About Rev. Joe Jagodensky, SDS.

A Roman Catholic priest since 1980 and a member of the Society of the Divine Savior (Salvatorians). www.Salvatorians.com. Six books on the Catholic church and U.S. culture are available on Amazon.com.
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